Reflections Of My Heart

Alone tonight.

Running from the shadows that threaten to consume me.

Reaching out, begging someone to take my hand.

Lead me from the darkness into light.

Be my rescuer. My hero.

Or just walk with me.

We'll stand together. United.

So many reject my plea.

Some take my hand for a short while.

My heart whispers hope. 

My dreams take on wings.

Then they let go.

And I'm alone again. 

Fear drives me to pull my hand back.

But I resist.

There has to be someone.

A figure stands in the distance, off the path.

He extends his arm in a familiar gesture I've repeated so many times.

His eyes speak kindness. 

Acceptance.

Love.

But I must walk through the darkness to get to him.

I must step off the path.

Behind me, the enemy is gaining distance. 

Ahead of me, a continuation of the sorry life I've known.

What seemed hopeless now seems less so. 

Or at least familiar.

Compared to the darkness separating him and I.

Suddenly he steps forward. 

Braving the darkness.

He runs to me.

I lose sight of him for a moment.

But he appears and embraces me.

I stand prepared to run from the shadows.

Together.

He shakes his head.

And points off the path.

The direction from where he came.

The walk through darkness to a far-off light.

I pull away.

I could never make it through.

The darkness is the territory of the enemy.

He looks deep into my eyes.

Past my fear. Past my loneliness.

Into my soul.

"Will you trust me?"

But the enemy will be running right next to me. 

"Will you trust me?"

Waiting for the second I allow insecurities, the past, fear to cause me to let go.

"Will you trust me?"

I want to be in that light. I want to be with him forever.

I take his hand.

We step off the path.

The enemy can be heard beside me.

Getting nearer.

But he trades sides with me.

Holds me tightly.

I am hidden from the enemy.

My Rescuer stands in the way.

I am not alone.

Not anymore.

Never again.

Let me hear of your unfailing love each morning, for I am trusting you. Show me where to walk, for I give myself to you. Rescue me from my enemies, Lord; I run to you to hide me. 

Psalm 143:8-9